It really bothers me when people say “why don’t you just stop” I wish it was that easy, I wish they could walk a day in my shoes seeing how I don’t even do this drug as an option anymore, I do it because I have too. It controls my thoughts, my actions, my feelings and so on. I wish they could understand that the sickness sucks if you don’t have the drug, and not just the physical sickness, the mental sickness as well, the drug constantly screaming at you to do more, to just spend the little bit of money you have left to get unsick. As much as I want to quit, I know that I will not be able to quit until I get help and go to treatment and go to meetings regularly. I wish people would stop talking so much about what they know nothing about.